I'm home? No, I'm at a home I used to live in with people I love. My home is up north? My home is where my family is and that family consists of my husband and daughter. But my family is also my extended immediate family, my brother, sister-in-law, niece and my parents. Then there's my extended family, my dad's side and my mom's side and I have in-laws too. I've never lived this far away from my family (all those down south) and I didn't realize just how much I miss them until I came down here to visit and it's a mix of emotions. I'm SO excited to be here and at the same time I miss my husband so much. I'm ready to go back and see him but I'm not ready to leave my family. I'm down here for a week and you'd think that would be enough time to see everyone but it's not. There are quite a few friends and family members I won't be seeing. It's hard to miss out on the daily lives of those I love. To be honest even if I lived here I wouldn't be a part of their daily lives but I'd see them more frequently, I'd know what's going on, I'd know more of what they are talking about with each other. There are a few friends in particular that I really miss living life with. It hurts to be away from everyone, email, texts and phone calls are great but aren't exactly the same.
Then there's life up north. I love life up north. I love the community that we're a part of. I love being able to spend time with other moms, other married couples, women in particular. I miss those friends. I love being able to spend time with my in-laws. I love getting to know them more and watching my nieces and nephews grow up. I love the area even if I do have to take a jacket everywhere I go, have to wear shoes more, am not close to a beach (not like I went much down south anyway) and don't see that many mountains. I love the fresh air, the wind is enjoyable most of the time, I can see the stars in the sky, there aren't billboards and there are new places to explore.
I can't entirely say I wouldn't change my life because if I could change my life I'd have all the community that I know and love from down south move up north. But that's all I'd change because I really do love my life, it's just going to hurt a lot to leave. As much as I'm going to miss it here I'm looking forward to getting back into my normal routine and it looks like regularly scheduled trips down south are in order.
